Don't read this!

I've been on fire. Not just a little flame, but a big, growing flame(A quote from Tom & Jery)
It's been consuming me. I never felt this way before, not for this long anyway. So many thoughts. Both evil and good. But the evil ones mostly take over the good ones. They are a combination of frustration, dissatisfaction, jealousy, responsibility, and wickedness. Yes, I am very wicked nowadays, i admit it. My thoughts are wicked, my actions are wicked, my feelings are wicked and my words are wicked. The best feeling that is constatnly with me is Boredome. Yes, it has become my best feeling. For it lasted with me long enough to become so. I am not bored because i can't find something to enjoy, on the conrary, I have many endless things to enjoy, but they all have suddenly become.........uhm...........BORING.

One of my friends, Tareq, actually, he might be the only one who reads this crap, he told me that this is my world, and I should write what I feel, But, what I feel is just too fucking Boring, to be written or to be read. I am too fucking tired of what I feel, and I am too fucking sick of it. In fact I feel that I souldn't feel anymore. There was this article that I read somewhere, that someone, in China or Japan, was selling his soul on ebay or some other site. May be that's what I should do, I wonder, if I sold my sould, would I feel anymore? But if I sell it and it turned out that that's not what i wanted, then I'm gonna be in a fucked situation.

I should probably stop bitching about myself and do something uselfull with it. Fuck yeah! That's what I should do! Bu then again, FUCK that, I don't want to do anything usefull, as a matter of fact, i should do something really fucked up and stupid, yeah that should make me feel better.

Until i figure out what's the stupid thing im'ona do, I bid you goodbye....

cao